What Have I Done? (Anyone)

Macy sat in her hotel room with the lights off, blankets wrapped tightly around her body, one lit candle in front of her as she cried softly. Mascara dripping down her cheeks from her day's make up application. Her face paled, she couldn't eat, dark circles surrounding her eyes, but she didn't care about her health, she only cared about one thing. Michael Gregory Mizanin.

She couldn't go back to him yet, not with these dreams and fantasies boggling her head and turning her on. She didn't need Wade, she needs Mike. But her wants always overlaps her needs so that's why she left him in the first place. She cried some more as a knock came upon the door.

"Don't bother me." she called.

"No!" Lucky exclaimed knocking on the door again.

"Stop banging on my goddamn door!" Macy yelled.

"If you would have asked nicely, maybe I would. Now open the door before I have to break in!"

Macy frowned before dragging herself to the door and opening it. "What?"

"I thought you were like dead or something. I haven't seen you lately." Lucky said

"I wish I were dead." Macy muttered.

"Don't say that." Lucky said

"Why not?"

"because you don't wish that, you only think you want it." Lucky said

"My life sucks ass."

Lucky sighed, "That's no reason to want death."

Macy rolled her eyes. "I'm not in a good mood."

"I could not tell." she said sarcastically

Macy glared at Lucky. "Why are you here?" Macy asked as de walked back over to her couch and candle.

"I came to see if you were okay." Lucky said

"Do you have your answer now?" Macy asked.

"No, just hear me out." Lucky said

"What?" she asked.

"I feel like this is completely my fault. If I hadn't cheated, probably nothing would have happened if I didn't do that. I'm sorry."

Macy shook her head. "Its not your fault, I've been feeling this for a couple of months now."

Lucky's head sunk.

"I'm sorry, okay? What am I suppose to do about my wants when I can't do anything about it?"

"I know I know. Sometimes we just can't help ourselves, I know how you feel." Lucky said

"I'm heartbroken Lucky, I can't even imagine how Mike feels." Macy said. "Have you seen him? Or talked to him?"